The Closure

There are moments and people in your life that you often feel like were made to happen or come into your life in order for you to move on and close a chapter of you life.

Forgiving yourself for all the wrong you did and acknowledging all the hurt and pain someone caused you and learning to let go of the person in you that had any sort of attachment towards them.

Acknowledging my mistakes and the pain I must have caused them as well.
I have never been one to want revenge, it is not in me.
However, I wanted to put myself first for the first time and not allow for anyone to break me more then I felt like I was.
I blame myself a lot for the way things must have ended and having someone feel like they weren’t wanted when that is far from the truth but at one point you have to realize that you can only tolerate so much before you start truly loosing yourself.

I can loose you but I can’t bring myself down with you.

I often tell people how much I felt like I was giving in order to keep even a part of this person. Everyone told me to run and deep down I knew but I’m still thankful for what I was able to learn.

I am at peace knowing I can not continue loosing sleep and breaking my heart and it is ok to move on and realize some things just simply aren’t meant to be.

that is life.

I hope to see myself happy.

if anything this journey has taught me growth is possible and help me understand how much love I can show to the person I am meant to be with. I’ve always said I could never see myself in a relationship but I think I’m finally open to it.

I hate that sometimes I make you out to villain when your calm voice speaks to me so gentle. It’s almost like you know how sensitive I am. You are not at fault. We are two people trying to navigate life and figuring ourselves.
I may never know what your intentions were or if you ever truly cared for me

but you did hurt me,

but I hurt you as well.

I thank you for being gentle. The chase was one I was familiar with, it was all I ever knew.

I do not blame you, ever.

my heart will never allow me.
I don’t know if you’ll ever read this but if you do,

You know who you are.

I hope you are able to grow a happy and peaceful life.

Im finally ready to learn to move on.

It’s a rollercoaster of constant feelings

but I’ll be ok.

you’ll be ok.

All my love,

Karen.